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The Diary: last goodbyes

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                                      The Final day




        Boy                                             Girl

It was finally the graduation ceremony
a moment to be looking forward to...                  
                                                      ...since the first day of university
                                                      when I had first seen him. Such an
                                                      occasion but still...
...my thoughts, against my own will were
diverted towards the girl in the third
row, fourth place. She looked more
attractive then before, maybe...                      
                                                      ...because of the blue ceremonial
                                                      robes he was wearing. He looked  
                                                      older and a bit mature as well. My  
                                                      eyes wandered and I saw my
                                                      parents...
...sitting near the front, so proud of
their son, witnessing such a moment.
Even then, I...                                       
                                                      ...was thinking about him. After the
                                                      camera flashed , we threw our hats
                                                      in the air...
...being a little sad; I liked those
hats! I saw my childhood friends around
me and I hugged them, realizing then...               
                                                      ...This was actually a moment to
                                                      cherish. I waved at my family and
                                                      started walking towards them when...
...I realized that she...                             
                                                      ...was walking towards me. I...
...took a gulp, ignoring her and kept
my eyes on my family. At that moment...
                                                      ...I realized something. Something
                                                      that sent a wave of dullness through
                                                      me. As we...
...Walked towards each other I realized
that this was probably the last time we
will ever...                  
                                                      ... see each other, ever in our
                                                      life. This thought made my knees
                                                      shudder slightly and...
...my heartbeat escalated; I could feel
the thumping in my head. My legs...
                                                      ...were shaking. It was the same
                                                      feeling as the first time we had
                                                      talked just...
...this was the last time we would ever
get such a chance. Should I...      
                                                      ...talk now?! ha! Say what? Sorry
                                                      for acting like that when you were
                                                      around? Even...
...If I wanted to talk, I couldn't
bring myself to do it. Or should I...
                                                      ...no, what I did is unforgivable.
                                                      he could never have liked me for
                                                      what I did, after all...
...Why did I not accept her when she
held out her hand? I wish I had not...           
                                                      ...acted all bitchy and accepted the
                                                      slightest of cues that he gave. I
                                                      wish if I could, in any way...
...see if she actually loved me. If those
cues were not only my imagination, to see...
                                                      ...that if he actually felt
                                                      something for me. We are parallel
                                                      now. This is...
...the last moment that I have to know the
truth. To know, if we could have been
together. But...                                      ...I guess it is useless. You never
                                                      really had a reason to like a girl
                                                      like me. I was nothing special.
                                                      so...
...I think it is time for a silent goodbye
to a person who never even realized I existed.
I think it is...                                      
                                                      ...clear to me that you...
...and I...
       
...are not meant to be together.                   ...are not meant to be together.


                   Goodbye dear diary, thank you for noting these painful
                    memories of mine. You were meant to record the happy
                     times he and I would spend together but I guess
                          not every story has a happy ending.
                                       goodbye.
This is the last page to a story that I wrote (surprisingly the theme is romantic!!) It features portions of the diary of a girl and boy who were unable to express their feelings to each other.

SINCE it is not complete, you may NOT go VERY critical over not being able to get it or incomplete storyline :D lol kidding, say what you want :)
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Laeneris's avatar
Okay, this comment is probably going to be all over the place... sorry about that.

This is... astonishing, in a way. As if you somehow stole my diary and added his parts into it. Well, not literally, of course. I mean, we didn't meet at university. But so many things in common...

I'm just going to admit that I cried here...Sorry to get all creepy and mushy on you. This story forced me to remember how I felt in those days before our unofficial goodbye. I was so stupid, I should've told him. There were hints that he liked me back, 5 years, how did I stay so blind?

*dries tears* I suppose I should give you some actual feedback instead of my ramblings. But I have none, other than that this was perfect in my eyes. The fact that it's 'incomplete' doesn't matter - what's shown here are the final regrets and that's all we need to read. The way they seemingly finish eachothers sentences without knowing what the other thinks is painful yet beautiful to read,
you just want to scream "Tell him/her!" at them. At least that's what I wanted to do while reading this. The simultaneous line at the ending was perfect.

Uhm... yeah. End of lamest feedback message ever.
:iconsitinthecornerplz:
I'd love to one day read the entire story, though, if possible! :heart: